THE SOLDIER
by Kate Aaron
Pages:
170
Date:
27/10/2014
Grade:
5+
Details:
no. 2 Free Men
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The
blurb:
“Three months. That’s all it took for Kai to
forsake freedom and learn to love his new life as pleasureslave to a wealthy
Thirskan Underlord.
Finding himself
surrounded by his own people once more, Kai should have been happy: relieved to
be rescued from slavery, and out of the clutches of a man who was the sworn
enemy of his people. Yet his people are not how he remembers them. Distrustful
of Kai, and disgusted by his relationship with not one man but two, they make
it abundantly clear he no longer fits in.
Beaten, starved,
and tortured, when the chance comes to escape, Kai is barely strong enough to
make the journey. Even if he succeeds, how could anybody ever love the thing
he’s become in order to survive?”
My thoughts:
In my review of “The Slave” I tried to be
objective and talk about the story and all the subjects it addresses without
getting to gushy about it. I can’t do that again. Every review bone in my body
is screaming at me to quote from and gush about this book, and so I will.
This is Kai’s story. We got to know him through
Tam’s eyes in “The Slave”. In “The Soldier” we hear what happens
after Tam, Master and Kai were attacked at the end of the first book, leaving
both characters and readers on a knife’s edge.
This book takes us into the heart and mind of
the soldier who lost the man he loved before being captured and sold as a
slave. The sentiments with which he remembers those moments in the desert stole
my breath.
“I
wished it [the sand] would swallow me, wished I could disappear completely
beneath the surface and sleep the eternal dreamless sleep.”
And
that was just the first of many times Kai’s pain tore at me. Be prepared to
have your heart broken as you watch him suffer. I almost wanted to curse Kate
Aaron’s descriptive powers as I could almost smell his scorched skin, as his
pain became so vivid I could almost feel it.
“I
was my agony.”
Kai
is a beautiful soul. His first concerns are always for the two men he’s grown
to love during the three months of his enslavement. Being back among his own
people doesn’t change that loyalty and neither does the torture he has to
endure. His fears for their safety are bigger than concerns about his own life.
Kai’s biggest fear is that the damage done by the torture he endures at the
hands of his own people might turn both Master and Tam away from him in disgust.
“Yet,
despite everything, I couldn’t find it within me to wish I’d never been his
slave.”
With
‘The
Slave’, Kate Aaron gave us a relatively pain and angst free story with
a massive cliff-hanger at the end. The Soldier is anything but pain and angst
free. Physical as well as emotional pain is visited upon all three men. Poor
Kai is lost. While Tam and Master at least have the certainty of having been
captured by enemies, Kai is left with what feels to him like nothing. The
people who captured him are his own but don’t want him anymore. Tam and Master feel
closer to his heart than any of those who hold them prisoner, but is he still
with them now that the situation has changed?
“We
could never go back to the way life was before, but as long as Master and Tam
would have me, I was theirs.”
I
did mention Master was an enigma in my review of ‘The Slave’, didn’t I?
Well, an enigma he remains. More suggestions are made and a few veils are
lifted, but the story seems to present more new questions than it answers old
ones. Who the Master is and what his motives are remains something of a mystery.
One which I guess won’t be solved until the final book.
Like
I said, your heart will break, time and again and not just because of the
ordeals Kai has to face and the feelings he is struggling with. Tam is
suffering at least as much.
“I
can’t do this again, Kai. I can’t. When they attacked, when I thought Master
was dead and I was going to have to watch them murder you too, I couldn’t bear
it. I wanted it to be over. When you hit me, before I passed out, do you know
what my last thought was? (...) I thought you’d killed me, and my last thought
was ‘thank you.’ – Tam
Kate
Aaron’s language is beautiful whether she uses it to describe her men, the
ordeals they face or Kai’s inner thoughts:
“Overhead,
the rings glowed cold and white, indifferent to the toils of one small man lost
and alone in the middle of the vast and unending desert.”
Oh
Kai, how you broke my heart.
“I
cried for what I could not have because if I allowed myself to cry for all the
things I had lost, I feared I would never stop.”
And
this, o my God, all the feels:
“Don’t
tell me what you think I want to hear, because I want to believe you so badly,
and if you’re wrong, it will only hurt me more.”
Just
in case you’re starting to worry this book is all violence, pain and
heartbreak, let me reassure you. There are moments of astounding tenderness,
life confirming selflessness and pure beauty a plenty.
“We
were more than possessions, more than dumb animals of inanimate things. We were
men; we got to choose who owned us. In that moment we both chose him.”
I
fell in love with Tam when I read his book. Now that I’ve read Kai’s story I
feel like a bit of a traitor. I still adore Tam but my heart firmly belongs to
Kai. The precarious balance between his strength when it comes to physical
challenges and his fragility when dealing with matters of the heart touched me
on a very deep level.
Four
weeks from today the final part in this trilogy will be released. I will be
marking of the days between now and November 24th. The world Kate
Aaron has created has sucked me in. Her characters have lodged themselves in my
heart. And her words, her beautiful words, have made me a fan for life.